Being busy on silly things, running after something which is not going to earn you anything. Impressing someone who is not going to be there for us in time, well I almost became a person like this. Who runs after something but has a dizziness and a directionless point.
Once I was sitting in a bus and saw two kids playing both
were strangers one was a girl and the other was a boy. To my surprise they both
united in no time. The bus started and it was raining, the water drops formed a
thick fog on the window glass, the boy was making circles and cute things on
it. Soon the girl joined and they had great fun. Looking at their faces I
observed they are not worrying about anything of course they were shy at the
beginning but it disappeared when the fun time started and I was chatting with
someone unknown impressing for no reason, Needless to say I realized that I
don’t have to do this for being happy. The real joy is in sharing the quite
moments, not in earning something or someone.
I wasn’t this kind of aimless person a few years back. To my
knowledge I shared whatever I have with those persons I love and try to be as
clean as possible but still I know I have a dark side which I created it by
myself, it cannot be erased and only God knows about it. I wish I didn’t have
anything like this but it happened with me and I guess everyone has a dark side.
When I am occupied with work and things to do and all the
busyness in the world I just wish I had a child’s heart , as pure as gold and
as soft as a melto, you think if I become someone like that my kindness might
be taken for weakness but I know I can differentiate between good and bad but I
don’t have a pure heart.
It was wonderful time being a kid. It was far far better
than my teenage days. I didn’t have to impress anyone at all. I lived for
myself and got what I wanted. One reason why I watch cartoons is that I try to
find my childhood memories in it. Forgetting about the world around me (at least
for a little while)
It is not going to change anything now but a temporary
relief is guaranteed while watching cartoons and playing video games. Seeing
cartoons like astroboy, pokemon, tom and jerry ahh! This is the best relief no
matter how hard the day went , you will forget everything once you start
watching cartoons and all that headache turns to relief.
Some people hesitate to handle kids, they lack patience, but
I love playing with kids it doesn’t require style or attitude. You can play
without thinking what others gonna feel bout you. Let them think whatever they
want to sometimes it kinda looks cute playing with kids and the best part is
kids never get tired of you they only ask for more and more fun. You become
their favorite in no time.
Life goes on very fast I’m just 20 but I think when I get
old, whatever happened 60 or 70 years back might look very small like you feel
time passed very fast. The only question
which may come to my mind must be did I live my life or not. This is why build
the moments as funny as possible and to my knowledge I remember most of my
childhood, not everything though my childhood was awesome. My family loved me
like anything, they have forgiven me for every mistake I did, no matter how big it
was but now lol! I get blamed for every small mistake I do. It was innocence
then and now it is called laziness.
I could study anything and remember all that stuff so
easily. Never did I put effort in by hard and now I hardly remember anything if
I sit for studying. I had multiple goals at first I wanted to open a school and
become a teacher , make my mom the maid ha! Soz the maid looked after me so
well. And then I wanted to become a railway engineer because I loved travelling
in trains and then came Harry Potter series and made my childhood magical. I used
to tell in my school that I am the Harry Potter and all that shown in the movie
was through cosmetic surgery. We were kids and my friends believed me when I told
them like a serious man. Such was my craze for Harry Potter.
It was my 5th grade (standard) and I changed my school. Soon I developed a
fan base there and almost all the girls liked me. We played without shy. It didn’t
matter going to boy’s home or a girl’s home to play and in 6th grade
I entered high school and I become famous as the speaker of the class, my
reports were above average or average but I was an awesome speaker I was known
for speeches and my daring stage appearance. People used to tell me I have a
wonderful expression when I acted or mimic someone.
I remember my schools best friend, once we were sitting and
talking about something very serious of our age. I was replying to his question
the I suddenly said “You will become famous one day I don’t know but I feel it
when you talk.” Spontaneously I replied “may be yes! But if I become famous it
will not be for money or fame I will have a strong reason for being famous.
As soon as my adolescence started my mind became dirty, I tried
to be as good as possible but you know now I am not the same person.
I cannot be a child again unless I go to heaven and wish to
god what I really want. The best thing I can do is to try to see the good left
in me, live every moment of my life, go through shit and come back alive. And when
I get time I will play those video games and watch the cartoon shows. Most importantly
play with kids and become their favorites..
This is it wanted to share because looking back at sweet
memories helps you to understand what the best can be done in future. It develops
strength and belief.
